Ups and Downs

Okay, so I need to get an operation done. And I don't have insurance. Or money in my bank. Big deal!

And I might not be able to conceive in the future. I say, might because it all depends on the operation. Again, I say Big deal. I've been through way too much in life to let anything get me down. I know people dearest to me who are going through worse.

See, that's the way it works. There's something called as karmic balance. If there are ups, there will be downs. And if there are too many downs, you only emerge out stronger. An elderly man I respect very much (Father T), once said to me when I asked him in a state of angsty youth, "Does it get any better?". He said, "Yes. And by the time you reach my age, you've seen it all. So, you're prepared for anything. But it does get better. Old age is the best time of one's life."

And I think now, I agree with him. If I'm already stronger and prepared in the last 10 years; by the time I'm 60, I would take every blow with a smile on my face. Grace of age. Living of life.

I want everyone I love and care about to be happy. And I will continue praying for them. As for me, I will fulfill my dream and have those kids. Not even karma can take that away from me. I've already paid my dues. It's only uphill now...