I've stopped looking for you
(Picture courtesy: Woman looking in the mirror, Frederic Belaubre)
I've stopped looking for you,
Shattered past, devil's stone
Of quivering lips and cold hands,
A smile so sweet and eyes so bold.
Let's pack you up, the stories untold.
Let's put fear and cowardice back
Where they belong. You don't trust me,
I know. Nothing comes from nothing.
So let's pull down the blinds on that show.
I've stopped looking for you,
Frigid present, saintly throne
Of choking words and abandoned poems,
Days so dull, choices unknown.
From black to blue to green.
You change colours mirroring my moods,
But never say why you are always alone.
So let's just admit we are all bitter.
Let's just admit we are bound by cords,
Pulling our insides together to keep us alive.
I've stopped looking for you,
Shiny future, light in white fog
Of water colours and dainty china,
Picket fences, I don't want them any more.
I used to dream of yellow flowers and
Green meadows, ocean waves and
A cottage with a porch.
But let's cut the crap out, I'd rather
Not plan, not foresee, not succeed.
Let me run barefoot on the grass
And maybe just be caught unawares,
Go where tireless Time wants me to be.
I've stopped looking for you.
Maybe because, you stopped looking for me.
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